L'esprit de l'escalier

It's all about the timing.

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Location: Memphis, Tennessee, United States

I'd rather be somewhere else most of the time and I'm a huge practitioner of staircase wit.

2/14/2005

Sweet Anticipation

If it's true that it's impossible to miss your life's path, mustn't that also mean there's a meaning to everything so there must also be a god? Because I don't believe in god, but I do wish there was a path for everyone and that path is indeed impossible to miss. But that would also mean there are no coincidences and no free will, only the illusion of free will. I wish sometimes I didn't care about thinking things through. Life would be that much easier.

I just completed my new resume and letter of intent for the tech writer job. Here is a list of the things that are place for this to be my life's path of the moment:

1. My obligation to work is up at the end of February, I'm free to transfer at any time.
2. My lease is up at the beginning of March. I'm free to move at any time.
3. My stock is at a nice high, it's a good time to sell. This is the money we'll be using for the move.
4. The perfect house is available for rent, the current renters are moving as I type and rent is dirt cheap for what we'd be getting.
5. D quit his job and is just waiting now to start packing.
6. And the job, of course. The perfect job...
7. The name I was given in the name of networking took the time out of her busy day to give me the best pieces of advise ever.
8. D's mother used to work in this very department and knows both the woman and the hiring manager.

I mean, really. How can this not be right? I'm setting myself to be a very disappointed girl and I'm just thinking... This "life path" thing. If I don't get the job and I don't believe in god, thus I don't believe in life path's, what will be the reason? What will I tell myself is the reason?

Anticipation is what I live for. I love the smell of it, the sweet anxiety of it, the rush of not knowing and the feeling just before I find out.

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